Words

" Words can break someone into million pieces, but they can also put them back together. I hope you use yours for good, because the only words you'll regret more than the left unsaid are the ones you use to intentionally to hurt someone" 

Taylor Swift

Change

Change: to make or become different.

We can not wait around for someone else to change in order to be with them or something else. But rather we are the ones that we are waiting for to change. The change you seek out in others is the change you seek in yourself.

Be strong and motivated in this choice to change no matter what it is. It is a hard thing to do, to change oneself. Trust me I know. We all know how hard it is. But we have friends and family to lean onto when we need to.

As Madonna said "No matter who you are, no matter what you did, no matter where you've come from, you can always change, become a better version of yourself." 


YOU can do it, just believe in yourself and push forward.  But dont change who you are. Only change the thing you think you need to change. For example a bad habit, better lifestyle (workouts...) anything that will help and enrich you. You dont need to change who you are, as Madonna said, we can become the better version of ourselves. 

As Taylor Swift said "I never want to change so much that people can't recognize me"

Friendship

A true friend is the one that will be there no matter what. They will set aside their own troubles or worries, and help you through yours. Let you cry on their shoulder, hug you when you need it. Will be the one who will do whatever they can to help you. Even if it is just spending time with you. Strive to be that friend, because everybody needs a friend like this. But not every body wants to try to do it. If no body tried then there would not be any left...so if we want that type of friend we need to be that person ourselves.

 As ghandi said, 'be the change you wish to see in the world', somehow i feel as if this goes with the topic. 

That is really I have to say, always love those around you and dont give up on them no matter what they may do. 

Stop being afraid of what could go wrong, and be positive about what could go right :D

Lovin' life

Love life!!! That is all i have to say or need to. You choose to love life, it is a choice you make when you roll out of bed in the morning. If you want to have a good day then have a positive outlook on it, and smile :).

Hello : )

Hey out there! How is it going? I realized I have not written in a while, but life is great! I saw a quote the other day that I thought could apply to everyone in different situations, " If there was no rain there would be no rainbows". Just keep this in mind, even though life seems tough and hard to go through right now, things will get better. Just remember that in order to learn the most important lessons of life you have to go through everything else.

I heard something today that was really good and wanted to share it: "first thing you have to know your own heart, and after that you have to risk breaking it"...something to think about i guess. Some say they dont want to do something because they will be hurt, but we have to risk that possibility of maybe being hurt to become better, a greater person and to be happy.

My best friend and brother told me something just recently: "it matters what your doing not what you've done, that what determines you" He is right...Im going to try to remember this

Ever feel like you have a mask on? That you can not take it off? That you are hiding behind some image of the past that you have not purposely made? I know how you feel...the past year has been interesting.Taking off this mask means letting people in, I dont know if I can do this.It is a long process of forgiveness, letting go, love, being happy and knowing what I want. I have only done half of these. I now feel like whenever I try to get close to someone or visa versa I close up and put up a wall- like the great wall of china. I am honestly scared to be close to someone. I don't know how to handle it. I want to put the wall down but I don't know how to...I am working on it, but how is still a mystery.

Take a look at the lyrics in the post right before this one. This is how I feel men should treat women. How in the past I wish I was treated by so many guys. So just think about it. This is what a woman wants: to feel wanted and important to you. not forgotten or an item. this is not how i am treated now, but in the past yes. So many men or guys I have dated it felt like it was just a physical thing, a hookup, fling or whatever...it always ended up shattering both myself and my confidence. It hurts more than you know to tell someone that you love them, and to think things will work out but then they end up not. And he turns up to be a complete jerk. And you realize how happy you are now that things did not work out. But then it felt...well there are no words in how to describe it. Also to tell someone that you are falling in love with them for them to say to you they hate love,and think love is man's greatest weakness. Then you things are just confusing after that because you don't know how to take that. Just want to say....men-boys-guys..treat your woman that you are interested in how you treat your mom. Treat her with respect, honor and love. And woman do the same to your guy that you are interested in. Always be honest in what you do, say or think. This is everything this song makes me think of when I listen to it. But then it also makes me so happy when i hear it, because how sweet and gentle it is. It is the most endearing song, that I listen to right now. And how it makes me feel confident in things in life.

" You know I'd fall apart without you I don't know how you do what you do 'Cause everything that don't make sense about me Makes sense when I'm with you Like everything that's green, girl I need you But it's more than one and one makes two Put aside the math and the logic of it You gotta know you want it too/ 'Cause I wanna wrap you up Wanna kiss your lips I wanna make you feel wanted And I wanna call you mine Wanna hold you hand forever Never let you forget it Yeah, I wanna make you feel wanted/ Anyone can tell you you're pretty (Yeah) You get that all the time, I know you do But your beauty's deeper than the makeup And I wanna show you what I see tonight When I kiss your lips I wanna make you feel wanted And I wanna call you mine Wanna hold you hand forever Never let you forget it 'Cause baby I wanna make you feel wanted/ As good as you make me feel I wanna make you feel better Better than your fairy tales Better than your best dreams You're more than everything I need You're all I ever wanted All I ever wanted/ And I just wanna wrap you up Wanna kiss your lips I wanna make you feel wanted And I wanna call you mine Wanna hold you hand forever Never let you forget it Yeah, I wanna make you feel wanted Yeah, baby I wanna make you feel - Wanted/ 'Cause you'll always be wanted" ----Wanted by Hunter Hayes

So right now I am reading a book: Eat pray love (ive seen the movie love it!!) So far it is really good! Some different things that are said within that I really like are: "Do not apologize for crying. Without this emotion, we are only robots" and "I crossed the street to walk in the sunshine" I love these. They are so simple yet have so much meaning :D

So besides the tour everything else is going good. Do you ever have a friend that worries you? I have a girlfriend who is worrying me right now. Just the things that are happening to her, and her dreams being ripped from her..its heart aching to hear about. I don't know what I can do to help her, or even what to say.I love her and that is about all I can say to comfort her,besides that I will always be here for her. Even 2 states away. Something she had told me though was: 'Be the shining star in your life, dont go to someone else to find out who you are. Find it by yourself and don't ever lose who you are no matter what the circumstance. Be strong and know that you are beautiful inside.' I agree with her, be the best you can be and be the brightest thing in the world. When you walk into a room do you make people smile because you are smiling? Do you brighten their day by your laughter? I dont know if I do this but it is something I am striving or want to be. In a short time we both went from crying and scared to death about some things, to laughing, joking and loving everything around us including each other. When is the last time you told your family and friends (that your close to) that you love them? People say they dont need to hear it, but in truth they really do need to hear it. So tell them often and mean it when you say it. Your writer :D

Hey! How is it going? Life is beautiful!! Just want to say that :D So today I went on my college tour at the Art institute of Utah..it was really interesting and education and the culinary arts/baking is definitely something I want to pursue, yet I want to go back to BYU Idaho to do it. On the tour I was able to look at different classrooms, kitchens and displays that were set out. Jeepers!! It was incredible being able to see the different talents of people. The guy who showed me the program led me to a table with about 10 decorated cakes...o my goodness! They were immaculate! I was in awe... whenever I am around just one cake I have to stare in awe at it..but 10, wow! And then he asked me to pick one that I like the best, so I did; it was a 3 tier white cake with a drapery going it look, with red roses :D It was beautiful, I can only hope to be as good as these students were. That was my favorite part of the tour. Another part or the first part was like an interview process, were he asked why I am interested in culinary arts, and what my ultimate dream/ goal is. So my dream/ goal is kinda silly but here it is: To open up a bakery in Denmark or somewhere :D. If that will happen I will see.

Ever feel like you miss someone so badly it hurts? Or that you want to be with that someone that bad? I understand how you feel...I am feeling right now. Yet it is not just one person I feel it for, its for my twin sister..two states away...my brother (hero) sister n law nieces and yes a guy. But what else can you do but to try to spend your time worth living, and live each day to the fullest. As someone close to me put it ' today is the first day of the rest of your life make it count'. Take that motto into mind and put it to practice and use.When you see them again, you dont want them to ask soo what have you done and all you have to say it o not much..but rather come back with a storybook already written and be ready to write another one. Because life is not just one story it is many put into a series. Sorry got off on a tagent there. But I know how you all feel when you miss someone so bad it hurts or all you do is think of them, and they turn up in every possible way imaginable: The main character in a movie your watching, the book your reading, in conversation when someone mentions something or anything. But life is full of surprises, keep a smile and live it to its fullest. That is what I keep telling myself. Love life and yourself :D Until next time... Your writer

You know that feeling when you find exactly what you are looking for at the store? that perfect dress, pair of shoes, purse or anything? I had that feeling today, but not about something rather about someone... It was an exciting, the happiest, and an amazing feeling. I can not really describe it actually. Just exactly like I said before. This person, well he is amazing, somehow always making me smile and laugh and i LOVE talking to him!! I do not know what the future holds, but I have bright hopes for it and will forever keep smiling and laughing. Also today, was the second day I worked out in a row. WOW! I feel so energized! Ok, I want to say this; it is not that I have to work out I choose to because I know it is healthy for me. And it feels great! For anyone who is on the borderline on saying I'll work out...tomorrow. just do it today! you got this! you will not regret it once you do! I have another friend I wasn't ready to trust again, because of recent event she and myself have had a fall out. But I am learning to trust her again. It is a hard thing to let go of the past, but it is worth it. dont let it pull you down and drag you or your relationships back. When you feel like you are ready take that step and move forward. :) Well have a great and smiley day today! :D Dont let anything wipe that smile off of you. And live today like it is like your last. Your Writer

Ever having a stressful day?? Yep i Know what you are feeling! I was having one of those days today, just stressed out with trying to get a job..with no success yet. But I am not giving up yet :) Keeping a smile going. Since I have gotten here to UT I am living with my cousin and her husband, they are so amazing..i could not be happier!!But I am also wanting to go to school again so having a job will help with that, and to also keep myself occupied. Well on top of this kinda stressful day some drama decided it wanted to creep into my evening making me upset, frustrated and stressed. So I decided to try calling a friend of mine..this worked tremendously!! Haha..this friend of mine is amazing..he made me totally forget everything and laugh and smile. Having true friends are wonderful! I am so blessed to have a handful of them :D But while talking we started talking about the bucket list I made..which i ended up emailing it to him. (even though it was like 56 things long-hey! I've got a long life ahead,and I might as well enjoy it right?) But when a stressful day comes around, surround yourself with those you love for and care for the most and it will be immediately better :)Not only that but take a moment and look at the whole situation and realize how blessed you are.

Challenge for today!!! Write a bucket list..I did it this morning. It is so much fun! your realize how much you love and want to do with life :) couple of things on mine: go to Ireland volunteer in Africa/animal shelter backpack through europe kiss under the mistletoe go to a masquerade... those are a few things :) have fun with it..there are endless of possibilities in life. So live your life like it is your last.

"But the choices we make take us on path to a journey. Sometimes there good, and times we have to find the turn around to get back on that good that we love. But we learn on the way. Life is full of surprises. Just find all the excellent ones." Theresa Nordine (birth Mom) Theresa knew exactly what I was trying to say yesterday.

To all those out there.... So choices in life can be hard, easy or unsure...how do we know which ones are right? The only way I can think of is to follow our hearts...that is the best way we can succeed in our own lives. Right now i have made choices and therefore i am facing the challenges that follow afterwards. I am no longer going to BYU-Idaho which is totally my fault and I am accepting it. But things work out for the better. Ever wonder if we make mistakes just so we can learn from them in the future or now? I wonder that a lot now. I don't regret the things that happened, because I am happy and love my life right now and that is all that counts. So I have moved to Utah to live with my cousin and her husband. While here I have I believe finally realized what I want to go into for my education. At the beginning of last semester I realized that English Education was not the path I wanted to take, and yet I had no idea what i wanted to do. While I have been here things have gotten a tad bit clearer...i believe i want to go into culinary arts and dance. So I am going to take a tour of a culinary school on Monday. Wish me luck!! But some choices lead us to make better ones in the future and to be able to learn and then have a better knowledge for the future. Other choices in our lives may be finding someone out there who is right for you, twice i have fallen in love and twice i have realized that it wasn't right. It is so hard to get over yet it is so worth it, because there is someone better for you :) Goodnight to everyone your writer

Today....there are to many of i will do it tomorrows and not today. Stop chasing your dreams and saying i will follow them when i have the money or time. Make the time now to choose to follow them. And stop procrastinating everything...if we did this with everything nothing will get done.

Recently things have been great! School is going well, and I decided to try to discover and achieve my dreams. What are they? Haha, that is the real question, to those who are out there wondering the same thing.. Well you already know what your dream is. All you have to do is discover, embrace and have the courage to go out and get it. Our dreams are the answers for the questions yet to come. As Walt Disney said: "All our dreams can come true, if we have the courage to pursue them. -Walt Disney" How true this statement is! So what is holding us back from having the courage to pursue our dreams? The fear of something new and changing will come? The fear that others will look down on us with scorn and ridicule? The fear that we will not achieve it? Fear, such a simple word but so great is the meaning thereof. Is it to be afraid of something that could cause harm, danger or even the belief of change. Does and will this stop you from reaching your dreams? I hope not, because the only thing to fear is fear itself. So having the fear of something new and changing will come happens all the time, but if we find the courage and confidence in ourselves to move past it we can achieve great things. Change is exciting and new, we should embrace it not turn away from it hiding and hoping it will never come. Well it will and does, so we should accept it. If others look down on your dream and ridicule you for it,- friends should be others who want to help you achieve your dreams and be uplifting to you, not pulling or pushing you down- so think hard about those doing that to you...they could be jealous that you have something that you want to go out and do with your life, instead of being in the same state of mind. This is always scary and something that we could fear, but why should we let it bring us down? We choose to let what others say bring us down, and we choose what we do and we should be proud of it! The fear of not achieving.... this is always the inevitable. But if we fail we fail, not because we did not try hard enough but because we had a greater lesson to learn. Failing gives us the chance to start again and learn from our mistakes. It gives us the chance to be humble and to learn that tomorrow is a new day. If you are focused on the fact: that if I try to go out and achieve my dream I will fail...STOP!!! Instead you should be thinking or saying to yourself what Walt Disney said...we just need the courage, and if I might add the right attitude. BE POSITIVE! Because then anything is also possible. Go out and achieve your dreams with this attitude and you will achieve. Sure things might be rough and tough along the road...but endure to the end. Because it is worth it. Dreams, they are not easy to pursue but they are rewarding at the end, and as we look back we will realize the journey that got us to them and be ever more thankful we picked up the courage to take the first step to achieving them. "Courage is not the absence of fear but rather the judgement that something else is more important than fear. The brave may not live forever but the cautious do not live at all."-Princess Diaries. This is one of my favorite quotations about courage....just keep this in mind as you go through your day. And remember that you already know what your dreams are...they are the deepest desires of your heart. Just look at what is in your heart and follow it...and have the courage to pursue them. My dreams have been hard to find and I am still searching for them...One of my silliest dreams is to open up a cake shop. I know this is far fetched but I know if I put my mind and heart into it I could achieve it. Another one is to be in a dance competition for my school BYU-I..I do not know if I will be good enough to ever accomplish this, but I will work up to it. By taking the classes I need to become great. I have many dreams that I know of and others that I am still discovering...this is a lifetime process and will continue.

So..your probably wondering a little bit about myself. I am in college at Brigham Young University Idaho commonly referred to as BYU-I. I am single and loving life as it is, as for my major it is undecided and I am seeking out what I want to do. As to how I got here? Well I graduated High School from Marysville Getchell HS, Washington in June 2011. Near the end of school I searched for my first job, Staples. I learned and loved a lot there, and gained experiences needed for life. As to different adventures that happened, well those will come at a different time. ;) Having gotten my AA in English the summer after HS, I sought out BYU-I, to become and English Teacher (at the time). After having been accepted in February, I prepared to come here for my First Semester. And that is the reader's digest version on how I got here to college. How is it going? Well it is Splendid!! I am loving every moment of it...especially being able to open my eyes to new things and seeing the world in a different light. My classes are the following: Nutrition Young Adult Literature Book of Mormon Intro to Eng Studies Beauty and Creativity-Humanities Reading Asst & Textbook Comp (learning how to study efficiently I believe...second block starts next week) All are going well and I am learning so much already- and its only the 6th week of classes! As to my favorite class, I really could not say because I can not decide between them. As of right now it is Beauty and Creativity. As far as why, I will have to post tomorrow about it...Good night to those out there. -A piece of life through my eyes- Your Writer Someone once told me: "If you look close enough to the worl around you, you might just find someone like you. Someone trying to find their way. Someone trying to find their self. Sometimes it seems like you are the only one in the world who's struggling, who's frusterated, unsatisfied, barely getting by. But that feeling is a lie. And if you just hold on, just find the courage to face it all another day, someone or something wil find you and make it all okay. Because we all need a little help sometimes. We need someone to remind us that is won't always be this way. That someone is out there. And that someone will find you:)"

Who am I? A common question one generally asks themselves one point or another while growing up. The point of life is not to find yourself but rather create yourself. If you were to ask your mom or dad on who they think they are, they know and will have a sure answer. Part of creating yourself is doing what you love the most, because what is life without love? Nothing, you have to learn to love and to love yourself in order to create yourself and to discover what you love to do. We all struggle with this and the learning process thereof, yet overcoming this and taking life on will bring us to where we need to be and where we will be going. So to challenge each of you and everyone, write a poem of who you are and what defines you. As you do so you will find that you already have created yourself, yet you did not realize it yet.