Ever feel like you have a mask on? That you can not take it off? That you are hiding behind some image of the past that you have not purposely made? I know how you feel...the past year has been interesting.Taking off this mask means letting people in, I dont know if I can do this.It is a long process of forgiveness, letting go, love, being happy and knowing what I want. I have only done half of these. I now feel like whenever I try to get close to someone or visa versa I close up and put up a wall- like the great wall of china. I am honestly scared to be close to someone. I don't know how to handle it. I want to put the wall down but I don't know how to...I am working on it, but how is still a mystery.