So right now I am reading a book: Eat pray love (ive seen the movie love it!!) So far it is really good! Some different things that are said within that I really like are: "Do not apologize for crying. Without this emotion, we are only robots" and "I crossed the street to walk in the sunshine" I love these. They are so simple yet have so much meaning :D

So besides the tour everything else is going good. Do you ever have a friend that worries you? I have a girlfriend who is worrying me right now. Just the things that are happening to her, and her dreams being ripped from her..its heart aching to hear about. I don't know what I can do to help her, or even what to say.I love her and that is about all I can say to comfort her,besides that I will always be here for her. Even 2 states away. Something she had told me though was: 'Be the shining star in your life, dont go to someone else to find out who you are. Find it by yourself and don't ever lose who you are no matter what the circumstance. Be strong and know that you are beautiful inside.' I agree with her, be the best you can be and be the brightest thing in the world. When you walk into a room do you make people smile because you are smiling? Do you brighten their day by your laughter? I dont know if I do this but it is something I am striving or want to be. In a short time we both went from crying and scared to death about some things, to laughing, joking and loving everything around us including each other. When is the last time you told your family and friends (that your close to) that you love them? People say they dont need to hear it, but in truth they really do need to hear it. So tell them often and mean it when you say it. Your writer :D

Hey! How is it going? Life is beautiful!! Just want to say that :D So today I went on my college tour at the Art institute of Utah..it was really interesting and education and the culinary arts/baking is definitely something I want to pursue, yet I want to go back to BYU Idaho to do it. On the tour I was able to look at different classrooms, kitchens and displays that were set out. Jeepers!! It was incredible being able to see the different talents of people. The guy who showed me the program led me to a table with about 10 decorated cakes...o my goodness! They were immaculate! I was in awe... whenever I am around just one cake I have to stare in awe at it..but 10, wow! And then he asked me to pick one that I like the best, so I did; it was a 3 tier white cake with a drapery going it look, with red roses :D It was beautiful, I can only hope to be as good as these students were. That was my favorite part of the tour. Another part or the first part was like an interview process, were he asked why I am interested in culinary arts, and what my ultimate dream/ goal is. So my dream/ goal is kinda silly but here it is: To open up a bakery in Denmark or somewhere :D. If that will happen I will see.

Ever feel like you miss someone so badly it hurts? Or that you want to be with that someone that bad? I understand how you feel...I am feeling right now. Yet it is not just one person I feel it for, its for my twin sister..two states away...my brother (hero) sister n law nieces and yes a guy. But what else can you do but to try to spend your time worth living, and live each day to the fullest. As someone close to me put it ' today is the first day of the rest of your life make it count'. Take that motto into mind and put it to practice and use.When you see them again, you dont want them to ask soo what have you done and all you have to say it o not much..but rather come back with a storybook already written and be ready to write another one. Because life is not just one story it is many put into a series. Sorry got off on a tagent there. But I know how you all feel when you miss someone so bad it hurts or all you do is think of them, and they turn up in every possible way imaginable: The main character in a movie your watching, the book your reading, in conversation when someone mentions something or anything. But life is full of surprises, keep a smile and live it to its fullest. That is what I keep telling myself. Love life and yourself :D Until next time... Your writer

You know that feeling when you find exactly what you are looking for at the store? that perfect dress, pair of shoes, purse or anything? I had that feeling today, but not about something rather about someone... It was an exciting, the happiest, and an amazing feeling. I can not really describe it actually. Just exactly like I said before. This person, well he is amazing, somehow always making me smile and laugh and i LOVE talking to him!! I do not know what the future holds, but I have bright hopes for it and will forever keep smiling and laughing. Also today, was the second day I worked out in a row. WOW! I feel so energized! Ok, I want to say this; it is not that I have to work out I choose to because I know it is healthy for me. And it feels great! For anyone who is on the borderline on saying I'll work out...tomorrow. just do it today! you got this! you will not regret it once you do! I have another friend I wasn't ready to trust again, because of recent event she and myself have had a fall out. But I am learning to trust her again. It is a hard thing to let go of the past, but it is worth it. dont let it pull you down and drag you or your relationships back. When you feel like you are ready take that step and move forward. :) Well have a great and smiley day today! :D Dont let anything wipe that smile off of you. And live today like it is like your last. Your Writer

Ever having a stressful day?? Yep i Know what you are feeling! I was having one of those days today, just stressed out with trying to get a job..with no success yet. But I am not giving up yet :) Keeping a smile going. Since I have gotten here to UT I am living with my cousin and her husband, they are so amazing..i could not be happier!!But I am also wanting to go to school again so having a job will help with that, and to also keep myself occupied. Well on top of this kinda stressful day some drama decided it wanted to creep into my evening making me upset, frustrated and stressed. So I decided to try calling a friend of mine..this worked tremendously!! Haha..this friend of mine is amazing..he made me totally forget everything and laugh and smile. Having true friends are wonderful! I am so blessed to have a handful of them :D But while talking we started talking about the bucket list I made..which i ended up emailing it to him. (even though it was like 56 things long-hey! I've got a long life ahead,and I might as well enjoy it right?) But when a stressful day comes around, surround yourself with those you love for and care for the most and it will be immediately better :)Not only that but take a moment and look at the whole situation and realize how blessed you are.

Challenge for today!!! Write a bucket list..I did it this morning. It is so much fun! your realize how much you love and want to do with life :) couple of things on mine: go to Ireland volunteer in Africa/animal shelter backpack through europe kiss under the mistletoe go to a masquerade... those are a few things :) have fun with it..there are endless of possibilities in life. So live your life like it is your last.

"But the choices we make take us on path to a journey. Sometimes there good, and times we have to find the turn around to get back on that good that we love. But we learn on the way. Life is full of surprises. Just find all the excellent ones." Theresa Nordine (birth Mom) Theresa knew exactly what I was trying to say yesterday.

To all those out there.... So choices in life can be hard, easy or unsure...how do we know which ones are right? The only way I can think of is to follow our hearts...that is the best way we can succeed in our own lives. Right now i have made choices and therefore i am facing the challenges that follow afterwards. I am no longer going to BYU-Idaho which is totally my fault and I am accepting it. But things work out for the better. Ever wonder if we make mistakes just so we can learn from them in the future or now? I wonder that a lot now. I don't regret the things that happened, because I am happy and love my life right now and that is all that counts. So I have moved to Utah to live with my cousin and her husband. While here I have I believe finally realized what I want to go into for my education. At the beginning of last semester I realized that English Education was not the path I wanted to take, and yet I had no idea what i wanted to do. While I have been here things have gotten a tad bit clearer...i believe i want to go into culinary arts and dance. So I am going to take a tour of a culinary school on Monday. Wish me luck!! But some choices lead us to make better ones in the future and to be able to learn and then have a better knowledge for the future. Other choices in our lives may be finding someone out there who is right for you, twice i have fallen in love and twice i have realized that it wasn't right. It is so hard to get over yet it is so worth it, because there is someone better for you :) Goodnight to everyone your writer

Today....there are to many of i will do it tomorrows and not today. Stop chasing your dreams and saying i will follow them when i have the money or time. Make the time now to choose to follow them. And stop procrastinating everything...if we did this with everything nothing will get done.